Sometimes i don't know how many girls out there feels the same as me... Boyfriend gg to Ns is just like an obstacle for us to go through as well ... Well mentally perhaps.. Cos i sorta miss my dear before he even goes to Ns ... It frustrates me why i feel so ... Anyway ... Doesn't matter it's just another challenge in life i have to go through the adult couple life .. hahaha
So here is how it feels... it feels incomplete even after a night of dinner ... Some how you miss bonding with him ... So where has the feeling gone noe ? hahaha... Leila Leila ... How are you gonna survive knowing that your partner loves freedom as much as you do ? Gotta do things that you wanted to do yourself already... Here is stuff i wanna do ...
- Trips around the world ~!! ( not practical childish i know but i just dun wanna be a mountain tortoise i wanna know the sickly world better )
- Then ... Fishing without my dear ... A big big Fish to tell myself hey i can be independant and fish w/o my teacher's guidance
- Going concert and recital myself ... To appreciate music just the way i like it ... no complicated theory unless you explain to me
- Cycle around singapore Breath in the fresh air and feel my freedom
- lying on the beach looking up at the clouds ( my mum always tells me every cloud tells it story )
- Reading classical novels ( I Love THEM !!)
- perhaps shopping by myself ( I haven't done that in a long time )
- Know more about myself ( sometimes w/o anybody ... you get in touch with yourself which is a good thing it's not loneliness cos i believe there are always you to accompany yourself)
I know this sounds like ranting of loneliness... But it's just to state the long time that i haven't been bonding with myself.. How can i bond with people when i haven't bond with myself yet ?? Right ?
By the Way .... Gonna plan for redang trip soon ~!!! Totally looking forward to snorkel ... I love looking at the sea fishes :D hees
PS!!! I Have My EYES on YOU ~!!