Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Because I’m so SO so SO bored … I decided to blog ! otherwise it will be too obvious that I’m slacking because I’m doing all the clicking but no typing isn’t it ?
Well Let’s talk about something shall we? Lets name this post rejection.
Rejection is probably one of the most negative noun one can ever face. Even the strongest character can crumble through rejection… And I have to be frank and admit that I’m crumbling. (haha, haha because usually I’ll be the one who push people’s spirit up but I am unable to push mine.. isn’t it funny ?) Amongst all kind of rejection I guess I’m more of a hmm what can I say, Socially rejected ?
And I’ll explain my view. Wikipedia (not the best source) explains this:
Social rejection, in psychology, an interpersonal situation that occurs when a person or group of people exclude an individual from a social relationship
Although it may not seem that I have been ostracize but I feel socially rejected. As if there is something amidst from my character and self doubting happens (battling with myself everyday). I am currently looking for a job after my ordeal which will not be disclosed online. After searching high and low for a job about 4 months I find myself stuck in a death trap, struggling to get out but unable to. Psychologically, social rejection is being ostracized from a group unable to look for a job seems similar. Company represents a group of individuals where you can belong to. Although you may have a love hate relationship as you and your company progress, but it’s a safety net to tell yourself that you are in a safe place of shaping your future .. Right now it feels as if everything is uncertain. Uncertainty brings doubt, doubt brings fear, fear brings anger and lastly anger brings remorse.
Yet I find myself remorseful of what it has become. Some part of me decides to blame myself for the current situation and another part of me tells me to be strong.
Clearly I’m not bringing the right energy. I need to be positive that there is something greater lies in store for me. I just have to keep trying and wait .
It may be a hard entry to swallow, but with this distressed economy, I am sure that some people who feels the same way as I do.
If you are caught in the same situation, don’t give up! Because I’ll be hanging on and you’re not alone.. Hang in there and we will achieve much more later!
Late bloomers are just flowers that will be the last one wilting!
Cheers to life
And Never let anything get you down
Ps: this may seem like a self consoling post to you because it’s partly is
Pps : Yep I just got rejected by a employer
Ppps : I may be short tempered because of my situation but I hope I can get out of it … I just have to be patient.
Praying Praying Praying !
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
We were staying in Hilton Petaling Jaya on our way out to meet our grand dad (my mum’s side) Usually we lock the passport and valuables in the safe. Since we were upstairs eating our breakfast, my dad lock all our valuables including my sony camera, my Marc Jacob bag, passports and my dad’s video camera in it.
So before we set off, I thought I want to take my camera to take some baby pictures later! BUT the safe would not open with our password!!! Call the technician to come with the master keys. The safe just would not open!
The technician state that the electrical system is spoilt and the only what to open is to force open. Even though it is disrupting our plan to my grand dad’s house, but in my mind : “ oh my gosh this is COOL” who ever see the safe get forcefully open in front of them? It feels like Italian Job (Movie) .
First they took a plier (no idea what’s the long metal rod called ) trying to pry it open. One technician tripled to three. And not there were three men forcefully open our safe! I must say that the safe is really of a good quality. Given that three men’s strength is insufficient to open a reasonably small safe.
the above picture is exactly how the safe look like after at least half an hour of prying it open .. !
So in the end one of the manager suggested bringing down to saw open our safe. I ecstatically volunteered to keep an eye on the safe and valuables with my dad. Acting like a child I skipped down together with the crew.
The manager was rather surprise with my enthusiasm, after all they were hindering our plans to go out. Well the anger and frustration was already subsided, and there were no use getting angry over spilled milk. Even my dad is fascinated with the situation so much so he video in his iphone… (what can I say? Like father like daughter )
The man chain sawed our safe. As sparks flew, I was starting to worry about my articles in the safe. What if they saw my bag , camera or passports ? I told them to be careful of my bag as it fits rather nicely in the safe. Sawing my bag into two was not what I had in mind. After sawing the edges it took three men to open the safe.
No writings can describe how funny the situation is.. but overall I must say that it takes A LOT of effort to break a safe! No wonder all movies prefer bombing the safe because it’s just fast and easy! Lol Since bombing is probably the most stupid thing to do, (it’s like signaling to the police to come catch you ) I suggest to invest in a chain saw! Just carry it to your home and saw them… just like what experience :P
HAHA sign off !
Monday, December 12, 2011
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Perhaps I'm just complicating my situation.. But I'm tempted to explore my weaker self and just to give in.. Even if I did .. No one can truely except the weaker me because I'm always so chirpy .. What an oxy moron .. Lol gosh !! I wish time would just pass faster today ! Or perhaps give me a glimpse of hope n positivity that I may find a job I love ! A perm job pls !! Haha !!
Ever since quiting, my head has been spinning what had I done wrong.. First the blaming then now comes remorse .. I have no idea if I should be thankful to be in this situation.. There are lesson learnt But I just can't help finding a blame on myself or my ex boss .. Whether it's just a plain misunderstanding or am I just naive .. Perhaps it's both .. Perhaps the answer to all my question post in the blog can be neutral ..
I just have to not over think the situation and let it flow ...
Ps : not emo ... Just trying to express
Pps: my brain is half dead .. So don't mind my blabberings if it doesn't make sense to u as much as it make sense to me
Ppps : alright ! I'll make it up to u guys by reviewing a tot of a book I've just read .. It's pretty interesting I swear !
Sign off !