Saturday, February 25, 2012

The Hard kind of education

Just want to keep this blog updated ! Just found out I've been googled ... the oxy moron is I am very VERY expose to the web. Knowing that I've just been googled makes me feel.. uneasy. I know there will be tons of people that will tell me why dont just privatized your stuff. If I did the blog wouldnt be a mode of sharing like what you're reading now right ? ANYWAY, I will try to calm myself and re emphasize that a blog is a blog if you're pestering me based on what I've written on the blog. Is just like getting a "magic wand" after reading harry potter / finding your vampire after watching twilight. PLEASE what is told or written on blogs you can only take it with a pinch of salt. If there is people claiming that blogging is just a mode of seeking attention.. I rather have real attention rather than a VIRTUAL one.

back to topic shall we ?

Recently I've undertaken a new tuition kid in primary 6 foundation. Some how during practicing our science assessment we stumble upon the hardest topic of all, reproduction in humans. Just as I would explain to any kid I tell him about the women menstruation cycle... HOWEVER, he started asking on men's reproduction of sperm. It all started when he state that he did not see the bladder for the women's reproduction system diagram. Then he start asking doesnt women pee ? why dont we have any bladder. So as vague as possible I told him that woman does not utilize the same opening for peeing unlike men.

Thus he made a conclusion : "men pee out sperm"

I know this is not true... but as a tutor I believe in telling the ugly truth. True that he might not need to know and keep his innocence. But I do not want the child to go around making wrong assumptions. Thus I introduce the word "ejaculate". I'm already feeling odd when I tried to explain and it goes like this:

Child: So we pee out the sperms together with the urine ?

Tutor: NO ~ it's not call peeing is ejaculate. sperm will not dispose themselves when you pee.

Child: huh?! then how they come out ?

Tutor (starting to feel awkward but I still try to be a professional educator) : Erm ... Just like women men produces new batch of sperm every month, in fact every day. However you can only store a certain "amount" of sperm. SO ... men tries ways to dispose them.

Child looking clueless.

I tried to explain in an appropriate way but I STILL have no idea how to phrase is as sugar coated as possible.

So I tried to explain: When men are "ready" their hormone changes. Every living things has the urge to continue it's species so does humans. SO .. they turn to different medias in response to the hormonal changes some turn to porn some turn to other stuff like girls. BUT for those who cannot control their instincts get themselves into trouble. THAT is why there are such cases as molest and rapes. So when you grow up as a man, it is your responsibility to decide how you want to steer yourself to be. When you lose control you play with fire. I can only tell you this much now. The rest you have to grow up and understand what I'm talking about.

The child looks a bit less confused ... But I'm already looking guilty. Because I know that every mother will hate me spoiling her child's innocence and every guy will hate me for putting their gender down (not like they can help it). But hey ! I rather the child knows what is going on than obsessing with girls and doing the wrong stuff . But IF I really did something wrong,I apologize sincerely. There is no other way I can think at that moment to put it. I can only vaguely remember once that my classmate that sat beside me during my secondary four is that men got it harder than the women. Now that I read on cases and base on my experience I understand and I sympathize men out there. BUT there are fine line with sympathy and allowing men to take advantages of women. My stand stays firm. Mutual respect for genders. If you respect us females like your equal, perhaps you should keep away your hormones for a second and listen to what we have to say or feel.

It maybe a touchy subject to blog about (at least for us asians) but I just thought that this will be something I will laugh about later or when I face the very same cross road of educating my child in sexual education I may read this.

I know there is always a better way to sugar coat sexual education. my parent's way ? is just to give us a book to read and yes I still have it! it might be twenty plus year old book! lol !
you may agree or disagree with my method. but in parenting there is no such thing as the RIGHT method. yes I may not be a parent yet but I do not need to be a parent to know facts such as this. In the past I stumble upon the parenting book my parents kept. I read it and from that moment on it dawn on me that as much as I want to prove my point to my parents they are trying SO hard just to teach me what they have learn. Knowing how stubborn my parents is I know it takes a great deal to turn to books for answer. I feel a pang of guilt and gratefulness.

My parents may not be the greatest parents in the world but knowing that they tried as hard as they can to make our lives work out better than their's , THEY ARE already THE GREATEST PARENT ON EARTH.

I think til now my parents have no clue on what I knew about them haha OPPS ! but love need not be express by merely words. I believe action still speaks louder than words SO DOES sincerity.

Sign off !

Friday, February 17, 2012

Yo !
Finally an update on my life! haha it has been 2 weeks since I started out work . I know it pretty much an Oxy moron(contradiction) but the stress levels, politics and etc was getting into me.
In the past I used to sleep walk a handful of times but it was only during my primary school days when I was on medication or stress. In a long time coming, I actually had one!! and this time I know the content of my dream so I roughly know what I did in my dream. the only thing is I do not know if I did it in reality. So I decided thats it ! I'm going to a foot massage to relieve myself and hopefully get a well rested night.
Foot massage always work.. but I was unaware of the living nightmare happening while I was asleep.
Let me state this thing straight, I do not like to pin point or start to bitch or perhaps what you call publicise dirty laundry. What I can say is I was disappointed although there was no harm intented but harm was done... IN FACT I have my new company HR in my friend's list ... so what up ! haha what else can I say ? I put this upon myself that I didnt set my social network to private ? this is not my branding I dont do this. I love to be someone who shows different side of me. Why do I need to set my privacy mode just cos I want to prevent my dirty laudry from being aired out ? I show who am I but now I am all grown up I have to take things in a bigger picture. I need to show only what is necessary for people to see... because people like to judge. Bet there is already judgement made just when I post this entry. but What the hell... I have never defame someone else because I know what it's like to have the name pointed out in black and white out of anger. I am revengeful but I have to think of consequences. So what up ? If I was already established a lawyer's letter would have been sent. I would have already send several of it ... but i am not ! I'm just a tad normal quarter century years of lady... with reputation free for people to smear. I am what I am.. people can define me but NEVER KNOW ME !

Sign off LEILA

Monday, February 13, 2012

Happy Valentines' Day

Hello !
Happy Valentines' Day everyone ! Some people might be celebrating alone like me ! :P Not exactly alone I'm going to celebrate with my girls to pamper myself. If you do not have anyone to call your own yet ...
Love yourself before you love others !
Never ever forget about you! because most of the times e envelope ourselves with other people's problem but we forgoten about our own needs !

Love you then Love others ! Not asking you to be a vain pot selfish person thou do not misinterpret !

Every year in spirit of valentines' I always made things or perhaps save my money to buy gifts for my friends. :D just because I appreciate everyone of them. Those who havent tasted them, Here's a Virtual taste of my cupcake of LOVE ;)

Hope everyone is enjoying their Valentine's day !

If you're are envious of people holding roses or bears etC , DONT BE ! heres a virtual hug for you ! In the world of friends there's no strangers :D

Sign off !


Sunday, February 12, 2012

Chingay 2012

Yo !
I know chinese new year is almost over... Infact the good news is just when chinese new year ended I've got a job ! :D I made a promise to myself that I'll not screw this up and I'm definitely trying my best not to eat my own words! So that explains the lack of posting :P
Anyway back to topic shall we? hees

It was my virgin time to chingay.. irony is; even though i had helpout for chingay multiple times I have not actually sit and watch a full Chingay. Many would have told me that I'm lucky to have earn myself a category 1 ticket but ! the ticket was "hard" earned. It was given out of apology from my supervisor for the payment issue... So despite of all the pain I went through it was pretty worth it after all.

I was given a pair of tickets, orginally I wanted to present it to my aunts who were here from malaysia. At the very last minute they pulled out. Mainly because to them it wouldnt be fun for just the both of them... Franktically I tried to sell... "Fail" then I tried to find a partner to go with me ... FAIL ! Then I start to wonder if this tickets were more of a liability rather than an asset -_-"'
Just the night before a guy message requesting to buy a single ticket. Yay ! Not only I get to watch chingay this time I also get to earn some cash ;) (of course there was some white lie told in order to sell the ticket at a good price- AHEM Im a business man after all AND a marketer )
On show day, I was REALLY busy. I spent the whole morning and early afternoon packing my room. Then I had to rush down to meet my fellow lomographers to learn some stuffs and to fly my kite of course :D Since I was in a mad rush to head down to marina barrage to meet my friends I didnt have a proper lunch. Thus I only went ahead and made do with london chocolate roll ( process food or at the very least this process cake taste disgusting I had strawberry and cream in the end it just taste like chemically soaked sponge lol and 'm not exagerating )
So after all the kite flying I met up with my buyer and pass him the ticket. I hate to just dump him even though he did state that he didnt know his way. but I was famished ! I had to eat some proper food. The selfish me decided to dump him and went ahead to grab some food. :P By the time I finish my dinner it was already 7.15 or so and I have to be seated at 7.30pm

On my way to F1 pit Building I love the feathery effect on my head piece :D

Amongst the crowd of people rushing over

I rushed down together with the crowd and sat myself just in time...
Never did I know that what's in store for the next 30 minutes was a patriotic cheer -_-"'
Not that I hate the country I stayed most of my life in but.... To repeat the sentence "we are one " for 30 minutes is kinda irritating after 10 minutes. At least give a variation. In addition when I look around me there were a number of foreigners... (Then I began to view the cheer as a little bit too localize and improper futuremore it's chingay not NDP) No offense thou I just thought that Chingay should be a more globalise show.
Half time I was so bored that I played with the recycled pin wheel that was found in the goody bag. I kept having retakes photo after photo.. ( I could have swore the uncle and the lady beside was mentally shaking their head commenting about how vain can youngster be ... But HEY ! i beats repeating we are one for half an hour... lol

What I wanted to achive was movement that was something like this ... The magazine paper was so flimsy that it was really hard to blow .... and make it spin !

Most of my attempts looks something like this ! lol !

The opening was a HUGE flying dragon... cute in a way but at the other side of the F1 pit building is a pheonix. The dragon and pheonix met in the middle and gave a spectacular display. UNFORTUNATELY we were not in the middle of the pit... we kinda miss out some shows. So if the tickets in the middle are of the same price, It beats sitting as near as the president as possible because you get EXTRA shows.

To summarise, (I cant possibly tell you show by show otherwise it'll be a book long! ) there were so many displays of glow in the dark dragon, creative displays of "floats" and wonderful and impactful dances ( I decided to conclude that dancing in water are great no matter what kind of dance is ) I have never regret coming down to chingay to watch such a spectacular show. I am proud of Singapore to host such a international standard parade(except for the cheer) and I would not have hessitate if some one ask if I want to participate in another Chingay whether performers or spectators. Watching it live is definitely WAY BETTER than watching on TV. Best of all it wasnt even hot and sweaty !
So the rest I shall illustrate with pictures shall we ?

The big floating dragon! unfortunately my shuttle speed for point and shoot sucks !

The girls dancing on water it was such a beautiful sight !

The mysterious ... glowing boat !

These are the couple that the guy bought the ticket from me just to support ! Talk about good friends !

the SPLA-tecular performance ! I'm so glad I got these :S

To side track a little, look at the westerner staring behind me ! scary !

The human made glowing water and fire dragon

Human stacked dragons ! can you believe it ? lol !

I forgoten what name is this but we call it the deity float ! haha

The Deity !

This is sponsored by Singapore flyer...

Another dragon ! this one breathes fire but im unable to get it in pictures !

Butterfly float!
The March of the elephant
Swan !

Indian cultural dance

The float from Japanese Ambassy with life performance!
Indonesian masquerade !

My Fav STAR WARS ! hees

The Happiest float of the night !

Glow in the dark dragon !

Sports theme dances

Getting ready for the finale

Finale boat !
and Finally the fireworks !
Woo hoo !!

Sign off Leila