Thursday, May 2, 2013
Our foundation for wedding preparation are fully laid... which includes our wedding theme ! :D
I am super excited ! I cannot wait to look into the details..
Wedding planning can either be enjoyable or stress. In terms of money and decision making between the both of us it was pretty stressed along with the HDB application.
But I'm glad it is right on track.
So now I decided to dedicate a website solely for wedding planning, and sharing our joys and woes :D
In future it might be useful for anyone who are like us. :D
Sorry dearie, I did not consult you first. BUT it's nothing but SWEET memories my dearie .
Webbie : http://myleila.perfectweddings.sg/
Anyone can read about it thou it just have our first post !
Sign off !
Thursday, April 11, 2013
life is never smooth sailing if life is smooth there will be no ups and downs that will make every step of your journey memorable.
despite all that I found myself strangely sadden Today. all it takes was a flick of a switch to turn on the negativity.. I should be blessed with what I have but yet .. I can't feel satisfied. all I felt was dosage of disappointment. everything that bothers me that I put aside just pours in.
I'm so lucky to have my dearie.Although I ha've to cry alone in office. but I know all it takes was one call and my dearie will comfort me. perhaps too many people think I'm happy go lucky I use tp cry alone in disappointment. honestly yes I feel a pang of jealousy when people's sadness was put priority of yours . what ? just because I do not show socially or publicly means I do not need to be comfort ? or is it just because I am strong enough to handle myself I don't have to be bothered ?
Afterall Im a girl all should be treated equally isn't it ? whether bf or no bf husband or no husband .. i guess I have to submit to fate .. there's no way anyone will treat me for the girl I am except for my dearie because he knows I'm v vulnerable at times and I need to be treated like a little girl. all I need was a hug. when I was single all I need to do was to whatsapp I need a hug to my poly friends majority and find Yh to grumble lol
without them I guess I wouldn't have gone through the downs that smoothly :) thats what friends are for I wouldn't trade it for anything. and yes dearie even if my friends won't be here all the time , you will be my friend, my lover, my soulmate,my husband to be, My everything :)
thanks for being there for me.
sign off Leila
Thursday, April 4, 2013
I guess this blog has been neglected too darn long.
and people would have probably ditch the hope of reading anything new lol !
BUT HEY I'm still here still with plenty of thoughts and common concern.
Ever since I got engage on my birthday. I guess my life made 360 deg change, Eg: How my bank is with amount that it never reach before.. USUALLY and I'll proudly say... my bank is ZERO ! lol !
now it is not! Now my indulgence is buying bridal magazine, watching say yes to the dress, wathing wedding cakes .. GOD ! I told my dearie, I'm turning BRIDEZILLA !! the wedding is about 11 months away and I'm panicking.
Panicking about photographer
Panicking about my shoes, Accessories
Panicking about my weight !
Panicking about Money and Budget..
BASICALLY Kiasu-ism took over !
I'm pretty lucky my dearie is more laid back in letting me decide.. sometimes he will step in to object.
Yesterday I broke down a little and teared because I was thinking how can all these be resolve.. Whether should I give up the date or certain things like maybe rental of car ... blah blah blah..
I believe everyone's resources are limited. So is ours but there goes the age old arguement that it only happens once in a life time. SUCH a delimma.
For now I just have to think positive and let it sit in a way that everything will work out.
it's now only 1st quarter of the year and I hope Better change is coming.
A good change. 2014 onwards is most probably the year our life would change.. and I cant wait to share my pride and joy with you guys virtually.
Opps I havent nap..
Gotta Work !
Meeting with my girls later for dinner. Cant wait to gossip and chat with my girls.
They always made my day.. although since I am saving money I dont go out with them anymore.
Not going out does makes me feel neglected and how I miss the feeling. And I'm very lucky that my dearie is a very understanding man who knows I need my daily dose of gossiping and girl talk once in a while.
So lets just wait if I still be able to click with them. Cos sometimes I'm at lost :P
I'M BECOMING OLD... very soon I'll be joining the married woman club talking about houses, husbands and then children..
PLEASE DONT DITCH ME ....
I know im not psychologically balance :P
Sign Off !
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
I know it's been ages since I updated. Showed my blog to dearie... I guess guys will never get the need to blog and the purpose.
My purpose of blogging is perhaps not only bitching but also to pen down my feeling and analogy. So as time pass I read on my development as I age.
SO ! it's 2013 ! time really flies ! 2013 will be a year of constant progress, planning. Yet I have a disturbing feeling yesterday. I felt as if I'm stuck in a rut with no where to go. at 26 years having the feeling isnt a good omen.
So lets all pull our socks up ! Shred any kind of negativity and start this year a positive one !
I do not care what people may say regarding $.. .$ will come in any way any form.
Even if it's just saving 80 cents buying herbal tea, it's still money !
I have to eat my med and perhaps nap.
Sign Off !